My little guy….what a trooper.
After missing a whole week of school, (after only the second week of the school year)he goes back today.

I hope he does alright. The doctor has him pumped full of so many medications right now, one of which includes Cortisone, that I worry he will be a bit loopy during school.
Or have a relapse.
Or start to feel sad.
Or feel lonely.
Or miss me.
Or……

Does this ever end? Will there ever come a day when I don’t worry about my little guy?

My husband’s mother and her sister, Mary came to see Zach in the hospital the last day we were there. And aunt Mary gave Zach a book.

I knew the book.

This short piece of modern literature never had the same meaning that it does now. It never hit home the way it does now.
It never made me cry a vast ocean of tears the way it does now.

“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.”

Motherhood…..
The first time that I coaxed my large pregnant belly, I thought of all of the good and all of the rewards that were in store for me.

But the beautiful (and painfully difficult to even think about) circle of life hadn’t even crossed my mind at that point. I was clueless.

I grew up watching that circle on a daily basis with my own parents. I saw the love. I felt the love. It doesn’t end. It goes on.

And today, I am experiencing it with my own children.

At times it has been hard. And at times, it has been absolutely bursting at the seems with ease.
Unfortunately, you find yourself focusing too much on the hard.

But at this moment, all I can do is cherish the now with my children. The love, the pain, the joy and the heartache.
All of it, good or bad, it is ours. It belongs to us.

And it reminds us of what is important in life.